The graduation high has worn. Yes, I was really excited to have graduated and whatnot but the realities of life have set in. Friends, I'm struggling. I'm tired, depleted, and not really sure what to do at this point. Four temp agencies later, I have lost all my optimism. I left school in December with this awesome plan: France in January, Tanzania from February-May. That fell through. CNR screwed me over galore. France happened and it was challenging. Beautiful but challenging. The choice to leave wasn't an easy one and it didn't always seem like the right one but I think it was. I needed the time off. However,I didn't work for four months. I enjoyed bumming around but too much free time is not always a good thing. It was difficult too but I dealt with it. I don't think I can deal with it again. I can't be unemployed for four more months. It will drive me crazy. I guess I'll just keep applying and hope someone recognizes how amazing I am? IDK...
In other news, the last two weeks have been interesting. A 4 hour trip that turned to 10 hours (The Odyssey), to seeing some awesomely bad/ugly drag queens, being serenaded by a crackhead, watching a Macy's associate attempt to get two foreigners (I knew this because they clearly only spoke/understood Spanish and she, said associate, only knew English) and screw up their credit because she was trying to get her commission rather than leave them alone because they didn't understand what they were signing up for, and finding trashy novels such as Zane and company in the African American section amongst the works of James Baldwin, Richard Wright, Maya Angelou, and Zora Neale Hurtson. I didn't get that at all. I guess it hasn't been boring at all. If only I could find a job...
Besos,
Estella♥
