I love to be loved

I am dreamer,

Limitless,

effortless,

and graceful when you least expect it.

A daughter to a psychotic mother who has loved me the best way she knows how.

I am an aunt.

Scholarly,

La grande royale,

seemingless,

mignon,

incredible at my best,

everything Fanon thought of but never explored or wrote of;

I am a treasure chest.

Everything you wish you were,

your rival,

your lover,

the best friend you wish you had.

Compassionate,

loyal,

profound without even trying.

I am an amalgamation of reality,

a photographer,

Camerican,

stuck,

Giving,

improving,

vain,

self-reliant

fragile,

GREAT when I'm mediocre, stellar at my best;

everything you wish you could be and then some.

a metaphor waiting to be written

i'm on a quest.

I looked for God in many places,

I found him in a mosque,

Lost faith in humanity,

found it in Islam,

I am in recovery.

I embrace my shortcomings.

a firm believer in spring cleaning.

Lost

I'm a believer in Christ;

I'm a fragment,

magical,

A thinker,

inconsistent

profound when you least expect it.

nostalgic,

the long lost love you've dreamed of but haven't had the courage to seek out.

Cameroonian by birth,

rooted in Yaounde,

A Parisian in the making,

Bostonian in love with Dakar

with New York as my ex

and D.C. in my future

I'm the revolution Africa seeks and has yet to find.

A martyr.

searching for truth in unconventional places.

Solace

That girl who loves to like and is consistently in like, never in love,

often in lust masked as love confused with like.
I am playful,

fluent in sarcasm,

in love with Arabic but French is my first love.

Haunted by what if's and missed possibilities.

Allergic to apples (but I eat them),

mushrooms.

I am severely allergic to bullshit.

I am depleted.

consistently moved by others.

Saddened by poverty,

taking it one day at a time.

I hate winter,

live for summer, sundresses, and sunglasses.

flip flops are love.

doctrinaire in redemption.

I am a distant memory

je comprends l'importance de savior,

i am witty,

i am poor,

Empowered by Desmond Tutu, humbled by Wangari Maathai, mesmerized by Camus and head over heals in love with Garcia Marquez.

I am unencumbered,

ready to continue the takeover,

a legend in the making.

waiting in a coffee shop

adherent to the belief that coffee is liquified gold.

Thoughtful,

reserved,

persistent,

obsessed with the preservation of memory.

Bismillah!

A soon to be college graduate in search of direction but my compass is broken.

I am affectionate,

a distraction,

your future boss!

Continuous.

Hopeful,

evolving,

crass.

Continuiously pensive,

a mystery.

I am forgetful.

cOmitted,

omitted,

celebrated.

a poor speller,

excellent grammarian (when I feel like it).

Educated,

red lipstick,

full of adventure,

unpredictable.

Living life simply,

and abundantly.

I am cultured,

rich,

and cultivated.

Flexible.

I see possibilities in impossibilities.

accessible,

open,

selective,

rebellious,

failed poet,

wanna be writer,

misunderstood.

an activist,

awkward,

articulate

an aliteration in the making.

I am everything Senghor, Cesaire, and Damas conceptualized and hoped for but failed to make a reality.

I am a fugitive.

I am the coolest thing since sliced bread;

true story.

Superb,

sensitive,

humorous.

A small deciduous European tree of the rose family,

a favorite.

I fear failure.

I am dependable,

insightful.

Je me souviens toujours.

Yangi ci jamm?

Jamm Rekk

Y

Estella